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living life

in the shadows

Created on 2005-12-26 04:38:42 (#9106172), last updated 2005-12-30

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Name:	sheri michelle
Birthdate:	07-17
Location:	lexington/pelion, South Carolina, United States
Website:	myspace

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where to start...

2005 is ending & it's no s t r e t c h to say this year has been nothing but drama. life has fucking changed & i am trying to catchup. whatever the case, i've lost track of my sanity & i am not who i was one year ago. instead, i'm more mature. these decisions i've made over the last couple of months have affected my personality more than anything. alcoholism, intoxication, and this damn thing called betrayal - thrown into the air and i'm trying to catch the pieces and make sense of it all.

so, the big changes that went down this year are;
first and foremost, my mom changing. she's not who she used to be. and that's all i can say on that subject.
me realizing that self injury is my only escape. it's no longer that thing i do to feel, it's that thing i do to stay alive. that thing that tells me it's okay to breathe.
beginning to understand that no matter how bad a person messes up - they can change.. eventually.
moving out & then being ditched not even a month later by my supposed best friend. she said she was moving home but come to find out she moved in with a guy who numerous people have told her to stay away from. she's on coke, she's fucked in the head, she's her own worst enemy.
trying to stay on top of my game while all this other drama goes down; my dad getting in an accident and almost dying - it's christmas eve - my mom has no desire to see me - bills are due.

and then finding relief in three people who have always been there for me. moving in with my cousin (sister) and her parents and knowing what it's like to feel loved and cared about. this is my life from this point on.

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